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2012

2012-02-05T08:37:00.000-08:00

we all know which way to go we have ppl giving us advices... there are directories telling us which is the right way.

however... why do we cause harm to others and yet cause ourselves to live a life that we know ppl and our morales will be against.

sometimes it last in love... bt sometimes in hurt insteads.

i build something...

2011-12-08T18:05:00.000-08:00

as we use this period of time to rest our minds and think what we really want.. i will go to a far away land which you won't see and hear of me..

i will source for a ground to stay put during this cooling off period.. I continue to loosen and trample on the soil to ensure it's stability.. leveled the ground, gathered materials like wood, bricks, steel, stones and whatever I could find within my reach to build a structure..

as i layer the first level i ensure that the perimeters are properly guarded with wood to prevent big fires from entering.. brick by brick i layer white porcelain bricks as the wall of this structure.. so it will brighten the place when sunlight is shone on the bricks.. and porcelain bricks could also be used as a mirror to see the reflection of myself

i then kept choosing and calculating to find the optimum direction or degree to set the placement of the door.. so i chose a unnoticeable point where i could place this door and call it the "3rd door" i carved ornamented lotus flower, pearls, tea pots and horses as designs of this sacred door.. the intricately carved pictures symbolizes a characteristic i have to pick up and cultivate myself with..

at the back of the structure is a courtyard with the features of the earth 4 elements and also a strong stone brick shelter in events of any big winds or tremors it will be safe to take refuge in.. however due to the strength and toughness of this wall it blocks off some light which in turn becomes is a good sign that it can neutralize and create a harmonious alternation of light and shade..

now i climb up wanting to build the second level.. with iron but i must be very careful in the arrangements because iron is heavier than wood and bricks so the weight considerations must be properly planned.. iron also to create eaves around the structure.. underneath are pearls for i know with my strength alone this structure can't stand.. pearl slots are created also to for guests and visitors to send their wishes and regards.. and each pearl is a blessing given by someone..

lastly, i step up bringing the most exquisite materials and finest silk and cloth to build the top chamber, the roof was made by a spiral cast iron spire to deter against any incoming lightnings and it also acts as a declaration to the world that the spiral shaped spire is strong, unshaken and tough.. the top chamber is nicely decorated with all the ornaments, resting area and flowers.. i pen down all the relics, scriptures and sacred writings on the ceilings, walls and floors.. i arranged our photos i put it in frames.. from the first photo we took to the very last photo too..

i recall how we first met.. how you asked if i'm feeling ok.. how tightly you held unto me.. how i kept sniffing your hair.. how much love we showered on each other.. the first time we ate dinner together.. the times we sang together.. do you still remember how we used to be?

i finally completed building this 3 story octagonal pagoda.. i take a look at the time.. i realized 7 days has passed.. i've been building non stop but i still feel refreshed because every single movement or action i do it for you and you were on my mind during this 7 days.. it's also during this period i recalled so much so much about us.. did i cross your mind? did i?

fear not.. this pagoda is 3 story high and the location i build from where you are, you would be able to spot it as the porcelain ornaments and shining pearls will reflect your name and show you the way here too..

i don't know if you will be here because the break seems too long for me but i will still be here waiting.. because there's no where else i will go i will stay put here all i have i used it to build this pagoda and even if i leave i wouldn't bear to leave this pagoda for in it dwells all my tears.. sorrows and pain.. i will wait.. because i seen the side of you whom loves me wholeheartedly before..

2011-11-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

2011... is ending in another 1 month and 20+ days...

Can't wait for this year to end... It has been a miserable year where many wrong decisions were made... Lost myself totally this year.

If time could turn back how I wish i made the right turn at the right time...

Things are picking up and I really do hope that 2012 will be a meaningful year to me... Walk out of the past, step bravely into the future.

2011-10-16T17:03:00.000-07:00

简单爱 :)

2011-10-11T11:03:00.000-07:00

There's pain that cannot be healed...
There's a hole here to be mend...
There's a wing here that's torn...
There's a place yet to be found...
There's an answer yet to be known...
There's a direction yet to be shown...
There's a voice yet to be heard...
There's words yet to be spoken...

沒有用

2011-09-30T04:46:00.000-07:00

I really fortunate to have a sister... She emptied her savings for me... Got into Citi and do such a tough job and long hrs... Sometimes I really feel so useless why I brought her into all this shit... I hope one day I can faster repay her... Her sacrifices for a brother like me is it really worth it? Really... no other sister can replace you.

Me

2011-08-01T10:39:00.000-07:00

My best friends never let me down
My best friends are always there for me
My best friends knows me the best
My best friends knows how to console me
My best friends knows how to make me smile when I cry
My best friends can sense my happiness or unhappiness regardless how far the distance is
My best friends keeps my secrets better than anyone else on this earth
My best friends protects me from harm, warns me when there's danger
My best friends would never cheat behind my back or lie to me
My best friends will sing for me 缓慢 one day
My best friends remembers me in good times and in bad times
My best friends and I look at each other and smile when we hear "Time of my life"
My best friends and I visited Bangkok together before! (- Alton, cos he's too young)
My best friends and I hugged each other, hold each other hand in hand when we club
My best friends sees my strengths and always deny my weaknesses
My best friends when they are attached, I always want to see them happy with their partner
My best friends let me sing the song I want at Ebar first even when they want to sing
My best friends they walk me home after clubbing knowing that I might be drunk
My best friends are Alton Keh, Ong Si Si and Rebecca Lum (in alphabetical order as they are as important)

My promise to myself... :) and things I must understand...

Words said can never be taken back. I must watch my mouth.
It's not about me always sometimes when fulfilling what others want... It brings to you greater joy.
Love without expectation. Loving with an expectation is not love, it's investment. And when you love, it must be 100%.
People make mistakes... I learn from mine and I forgive those whom hurt me in the past.
Think good thoughts of people, just like how I now remember 你对我的好.
Jotting your feelings and thoughts down.
Build good relationships with fellow colleagues, there is always somewhere somehow in life we need help from others.
When there's doubts, unbelief or disputes clear it with that person, don't do things that would harm his/her friends and family.
Life is short. This breath I'm catching now is a bonus. Love myself, my family and friends.

:) I started this entry with tears streaming down nonstop... I ended it with a smile. :) Good night.

2011-06-12T03:04:00.000-07:00

我们都没错

只是不适合

Blows Dust*

2011-05-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

Been so long since I've updated my blog. I'm currently in Kuala Lumpur with Cal, Jessica and Darren. Today is the second day! Went to the gym and pool to swim. Kinda boring... Like no plans like that. But I must kept trying my best not to display any unhappiness.
Things sometimes just don't happen the way we want it to be... That's the biggest problem I have... Expectations.

Shun, learn not to expect, not to demand and not to wish for anything to happen.
When we can manage our expectations that's when we can control our emotions properly. As always I am very bad with controlling my emotions. I need to learn... to change... for the better.

I like what Becca wrote on facebook... (as below)
you deserve to be happy so keep that smile on your face and don't let anybody take it away!

Happiness is a choice. We can choose. Therefore Xie Shun be happy! :)

And... Work is starting soon at ANZ. (FYI: I've left Citi) To have more time for myself, my friends and the ones I love. :) Well... I didn't fulfil my target... Which is to be a banker... I'm like hanging neither here nor there... Still in card trade. Tsk! I hope this time round at ANZ, I'll do much better... and really really please achieve something ok, Shun? On the brighter note, I've made achievements at Citibank ah... in my short 6 months there... :) Top 5 DSO (out of 130-140 DSO) in the month of January. (Happiest month lo, you know why? Hahaha because fattest payslip ma!) And and and... I'm ranked first also! For Credit Shield for 4 consecutive months! :)

Hao la. End here. Fingers tired. Hehe. Bye!

2011-04-17T04:29:00.000-07:00

How many times will you allow someone to break the same promise to you?

1
2
3
?

This simply shows that... human never change. and never will they.

Thank You

2011-01-11T10:56:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I feel that god is very good to me. Which god i don't know but I know there's someone up there looking over me... my health, friends, family and career.

I've finally completed my last exam. Am now waiting for good news. :)

And proud to say... I've top the entire Direct Sales Officer channel in Citibank. First in rank for many many days... I hope I will be able to maintain throughout... I know I didn't do it alone with my pure strength, it must be my friends, family and god :) that have been sheltering me through my hard times, offering me a shoulder when I'm down. Thank you thank you.

Once again... proud to be a Citibanker :)

My plans for this year is to save up $$$. and to learn driving. Go go 加油。

My Life

2010-10-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

I'm very tired. Kinda stressed. But I'm happy I'm tired over my job at least not stupid things. But I quite bothered over my school... I just hope to survive through till December and get my diploma... Hopefully I'm able to do my degree after which... in banking. But due to the tight schedule, I can't attend school recently... Bothered over my work numbers, my submissions and my school assignment I'm so tired my eyes could hardly open now cos it's so dry.

Well thank God I'm not bothered over any relationship issue now and please don't bother me I just wanna do my job well... Have a good track record... Using my qualifications (that's why must get degree) and hopefully become a personal banker by 2012. That's where many DSOs strive to be in years to come... As for now I must do well. :) Carve out a career... Proud to be a Citibanker :)

Despite all this stress, I have very nice friends by my side, Rebecca, Sisi and Alton and isn't it more than enough? One doesn't need many friends, I just need a few very close one to tide through my tough times with me.

Perhaps this will be my last entry. And in days to come, my twitter and facebook account will vanish in thin air. Yes... :)

A Whole New World

2010-09-18T06:40:00.001-07:00

Makes me look at life at a whole new perspective. Made me realize the importance of my friends.

It's a very sudden burst of happiness that I can't describe if words alone. Really very happy.

Music, lights, people and the environment... Life is beautiful afterall.

黄美珍

2010-09-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/mayjan

昨天和黄美珍　我最爱的偶像　唱了　为你而活！

她还抱抱我哦。。

很期待她再回来新加坡

永远支持你哦！

第几个100天

2010-09-03T11:23:00.000-07:00

都过了超过100天了因该都有接近200天了吧

可是今天又想起你了

想起很多事情

我知道我有错对不起

希望你过得很好

18 more days to ORD

2010-08-22T00:35:00.000-07:00

23 Aug 10 - Off
24 Aug 10 - ORD FFI
25 Aug 10 - Full Day at Camp
26 Aug 10 - Full Day at Camp
27 Aug 10 - Lunch with my Superior
28 Aug 10 - Sat
29 Aug 10 - Sun
30 Aug 10 - Medical Appointment at TTSH
31 Aug 10 - Half Day PM Off
01 Sep 10 - Wisdom Tooth Extraction
02 Sep 10 - MC
03 Sep 10 - MC
04 Sep 10 - MC
05 Sep 10 - MC
06 Sep 10 - MC
07 Sep 10 - ORD Clearance
08 Sep 10 - ORD Clearance
09 Sep 10 - Collect Pink IC Lo! (ORD LO!)

and I'm not going back to Music Story to work le... Will be working as a direct sales officer at Citibank. :) Good luck to me. :)

70 Days

2010-06-30T14:02:00.000-07:00

to ORD! :)

It's 5.02am and its also time to swipe off the dust on my rusty blog.

I just came back from Zouk Mambo Night! Basically it's one of the best best best clubbing experience i ever had!

Zijie, Ivan, Joyce, Sisi and Cynthia.

Seriously seh lo just now but super happy super high! :) :D For a moment, I woke up seeing myself serving alcohol and stuff and the SAF Day Parade held at Zouk. Super scary can... Should have happier thoughts!

Why SAF Day Parade LOL because in another 2 hours and 45 minutes I will need to report to Jurong Camp for SAF Day Parade. Sadness. So I'm not sleeping that's why you get to read a entry of mine today! Heh. :P

Whatever that fills your mind... Becomes your dreams, life and thoughts.

Heart Breaks

2010-05-02T10:20:00.001-07:00

Recently, so many of my best friends are having heart break issues. Hmmms. A big hug for everyone... Let go. Move on. Stay strong! :D

Well well, tomorrow is OIL (Off-In-Lieu) for Saturday's Labour Day. It's a good night to go to Z! But then my bestiest Ong Sisi feels lazy! What to do! Hmm.

You know... actually we are all very lucky, don't let past relationships bring us down.

We are lucky because... we are in good health or better health than many others. We have friends around us that offers us hugs. We have a dream and passion. (Many of us is to sing!) :D

Jiayou. May all of your 对的人 appear. WOOOOOOOH!

5 Things I Look Forward To

2010-04-20T07:58:00.000-07:00

In Chronological Sequence

1. This Weekend Clubbing with Yelun, Leon, Daniel and Sisi
2. June's Trip to Korea and HK!
3. 09 Sep 10 - ORD!!!
4. December's Graduation
5. 18 Dec 10 - My 21st! Old le.

2010 2010 2010... Please ah... Please be a good year alright? 8 more months to the end of this 2011. Please...

Interview with God

2010-04-10T22:41:00.000-07:00

I've blogged about this 2 years ago. As I was reading through my archives, I come across this video again. It's very refreshing. And yes, very true. :)

Resurrection

2010-04-06T03:25:00.000-07:00

HELLO =D

I went to Easter Service at CHC with Zhu Ming and Veron. Since Jesus Christ resurrected from the dead, so is my blog too.

It's been... 2 months since I've last blogged... Do you miss my entries? Haha, I doubt anyhow would be reading it too anyway as it would already be covered by layers and layers of dust and dirt!

On a happy note, 5 more months to ORD lo. :) I can't believe it myself that I've been serving the army for 1 Year and 7 Months. And I can't see myself ORDing?! It's like fantasy? How can that ever happen!!! Anyway... there are quite a number of memorable events that took place during the course of 1 Year 7 Months, things that I can't imagine happening too!

During BMT (Sep 08 - Dec 08) @ Pulau Tekong

1. Sleeping in a shellscrape (a hole you dig from the ground to hide from enemies), full of earthworms and whatnots.

2. Not bathing for 6 days. Then you know how good it feels to bath!!! Especially when you need to put Camo Cream on your face, everyday the cream fades off just apply a new layer on it for 6 days! Eeeks.

During My Time as a Gunner (Jan 09 - Aug 09) @ Amoy Quee Camp

3. Got bitten by Sandflies! And the stupid rash wouldn't go off after 2 weeks. It's super unsightly, disturbing and itchy!

4. Learnt Wu Shu! Supposed to perform during NDP '09 but due to my countless of MC, I became a caretaker for their equipment together with 2 of my other bunk mates. Damn fun, roaming around the Floating Platform every Saturday and get off back on Monday!

5. Removing my Tonsils! (And got 3 weeks MC!, Woots!)

During My Time as a Clerk (Sep 09 - Present) @ Kranji Camp 3

5. Vomitted in the Cookhouse in front of lots of people. Feel very sick that day, then I just vomitted in my plate of food. Then got to throw the plates and even the cutleries away.

6. Nothing memorable actually, hmm yea the difference between the current unit and the previous ones is... I got to go home everyday! :D

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Heh.

It's late, I must head for school now, byes!